hey y'all! so long since i last blogged.
anw. nth much to say. just tt its so nice to see u all so happy!
yup! ss... tt thing seems damn tiring. i wont be able to take it.
haha.n dun worry bout e concert.
ahem. if u dun dare ask ur class... i tink i wun dare ask u all go for mine oso! haha!
some more more ex =x
yeah.
been slacking a lot.
fri had sji (senior-junior interaction)
sat went nite safari with class. tiring but fun.
n i guess e class is bonding SLIGHTLY beta. a bit late in e year yar. but stil good!
feel bad not doing work for soooo super long. shall make sure i use labour day finish my tons of homework!
yup. sy ss all e best for concert! will see u'all then!

wif love
ahaha
ap...
=)

i am who i am
5:50 AM

haha..ok...veh long nv blog le...

yest..napfa...i fail SBJ...again..haha...i hate it...nvm...not as lucky as sl can go out makan...
i got co camp after tt..after gg bathe wif my fren.. had to makan the camp food provided...then after tt had to go co for xiaozu...later went lt5 for dazu...quite slack actually...
then i left at 5... I STRESS>>> I NEVER PON...haha...cos my fren pon n left wif me..so i think other pple think we pon tgt...but.. i really got something on..went to pray.. i tell ual.. tt nite i so damn tired after everything...then still go clementi..start fr 7pm till ard 9.30... pray on the road surrounding temple...u noe black black road...haiz...veh pain..esp when u r bare footed n bare hand..omg..damn pain lah..had to keep psycoing myself to cont..after tt my knee so damn red n even blue black... luckily todae better le..if not...i oso dunno how..still pain leh..esp when i touch...ahh...but... i m not complaining...as in i m juz lao dao-ing.. haha..

act recentli i in veh gd mood...dun ask me y...haha.. i oso dunno...think is becos i want to b happy..as in...no pt being sad when u can b happy...rite? so i juz keep telling myself i m happy..n tadaa.. i m happy..haha...ok lah..of cos..this muz partially b true cos i hav not much probs recently...as in..yes.. i hav tons of undone tutorials n hw...though i veh not happy when pple keep saying i finish tutorial when i haven...sae i m mugger or wad..becos i seriously hav not n m not .. sometimes i m juz too sian n sick of telling them tt or denying...so i juz heck them..let them sae.. i m sick of rebutting them...n now they keep calling me top student or wadeva..ahh.. i dun like it..it givs me stress..as in..none in my class wun call me tt cos all of them noe tt tis is not true...cos everyone in my class isso damn zai...but... nvm... haiz...but other then this..i think everything is generally fine..haha..i love my class n everyone now..esp u guys..haha...wadeva...

anywae...i really think co veh slack..not like last year...as in dun sae SYF..but we oso train veh hard for concert...mayb cos its at SCH..now is in lt5..i really can see the training veh slack.. tix sales now like 10% onli...so pathetic..mayb its becos we dun train as much n as had..tts y we dun feel anything...tts y we r not enthu? i dunno...this type of things not veh safe to sae here...


i am who i am
2:23 AM

some random photos













warning: be prepared to see more of these rubbish

i m just too bored from studying:P


















blar


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something interestin

napfa!!
lucikly i passed
phew
i dun understand y moe wants to rasie the standard for the gerls
made me so scared
i din wanna go for pe remedial..
left 2.4 run onli jus a D can le i m easily contented:P

went to Bukit Timah food centre after napfa
whoa~
had a spread of
fried kway teow,
hokkien mee,
carrot cake,
suagarcane drink and
beancurd tang yuan for dessert.
strongly recommend the beancurd...
very nice..
the beancurd was so smooth
tang yuan was so tasty
yum yum!
=P


super full. and every one spent about 4bucks oni lo. so cheap


































the heavenly beancurd tang yuan!=)





































time to earn some money....

10 yrs from now..










































i dun really need alot..
i jus need to blackmail 1million from each of them
that would be enuf for mi...:P


tho i think they can blackmail jul and mi for more with this!




















photo of the day!=P *so malu.. but quite funnie la*

entertainment value: 100%
lameness indicator: 99.9%
ugliness: infinity ~

*for the entertainment of all xiang qin fu lao..
i "sacifice small me to complete big me" na~:P*

*big round of appluase*

shi~

i am who i am
11:13 PM

so much happened the whole week that i dun even know where to start blogging

so just let photos do the job:P




































helping out at HWA roadshow










































outings with maldivians and cambodians




















no mood to mug..






































simply love u gerls!:P










































BBQ nite ...


much more events
lazy to post le:P


work undone
projects clashes like no one's business
lagging behide in tutorials
sleeping in class
stressed
tired
shag
ponning school to finish work



but...



i m generalli ...




HAPPY!=)


shi~




i am who i am
3:43 AM

woohoo....haha....its 1am now...haha...sort of juz reach home n bathe...
aristal rox man...so damn nice...think its too short le...n almost my whole class went to support the 6 dancers in our class...so nice!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
so...aristal ended at ard 10...my class pple decided to wait for the performers until 10.30+...to take fotos and hug them..haha...
then go clementi for supper..then yep...here i m now...haha...

yay...love my class...
05s16 rox!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

kk...go sleep le..its raining now....so nice to sleep..haha

ss

i am who i am
9:54 AM

Went to watch aristal, was very impressed by all dances esp chinese dance guys performance. Enjoyed everything! too bad didnt get to congratulate my classmate for her performance.
now very tired... nitez!
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i am who i am
9:03 AM

i giv up...i m sick n tired of everything..
hav decide to start afresh.. i dun wan care bout wad happen last time le...
its a new chapter... a new beginning for me...
i hav decided...

ss

i am who i am
5:42 AM

happy belated birthday sy!
sry! late! cos din hav time to come online n blog. =x
anws, here's ur late bd wishes.
may u b happy thruout e yr... achieve wat u wan... n stop waving ur hands so much. =p
continue wif ur cliched-ness! =)

hmmm shi thx for e photos!
ss. i m getting sian-er n sian-er by e days. =x wa. ap is sooo un-interesting! haha. nvm. shall desert my talking skills for e moment.
cl. hope orion belt's not there! die! i tink having one on e nose soon!!! E WORSE KIND!!! haha
ooh i got band 2 for pw btw. not bad lah. considering e countless times we played bridge when we were supposed to be doing work. yup.

take care pple!
ap...

i am who i am
3:44 AM

yep..outing yest was fun...though i can see everyone quite tired act...haha...

cl... glad to see tt u were urself again yest...crappy n happy...cos previously saw u in sch u were like so stressed..n i was like...dunno wad to do..as in..nvm...juz glad tt u r happy...rmb to relax urself...dun b as pessimistic as last time...remember the orion belt? dun let it form k?

shi... ok..haha..my junior wore almost the same skirt as u...ah... muz like tt shirt we buy k? though its like such a belated bdae present...n yah...hope ur funny spots on ur face disappear soon..n return u ur white white face..

asy.. u hoh...will nv understand how cg feels.haha...u've been lucky thru out ur life..to hav a bunch of great frens around u.. nvm..hope u found ur shirt n pants todae...if not u still need go back bugis to get tt minnie pants...haha...

ap...aka cg2..yep...lets hold on till the end of this year..realised we always feel the same..rmb the dreams? the feelings...n now the cg-ness...nvm..we will survive.. yep.. i m glad tt they r in same sch as me...but dun worry...we will still b wif u though not in same sch.. dun feel too stressed..as in..sometimes u do need to relax...it may b diff to find real true n gd frens now le..but..juz dun isolate urself.. we still need frens n support to survive... jiayouz...

ok peepz...tc n hope we meet up soon again...
luv u guys...
ss

i am who i am
8:43 PM

great meeting u guys today.

shi! thx a billion for e nice souvenirs. esp e SUPER NICE WHITE seashell!! yay! haha.

cl! e orion line! (is tt how u spell???) haha. we are plagued with e same disease. n at e same area too. it will heal soon. no worries. =)

sy! wat a horrific time in e toilet. =x hope u have e time to go shopping soon.

ss. dearest cg1, e more i tink bout it, AND reading ur previous post, just wanna say a GIANT SIGHS. i totally suck at those same skills too. TOTALLY. just so damn bad. i shld just keep to myself forever. its easier. shall just banish myself to e library. nobody will realise anyway. just like wat u said, nobody will notice so nobody wil care. at least u have us (minus me) in sch. i m just really CG. oh well, tt being said, at least we agree tt everything is ending soon. so try not to care. hang on! ok. shld not sound so depressing. yay! we went out today! (just to end on a lighter note) everything will be fine in e end. =)

ap...

::added on::
feel quite alone.n stressed.haha
tts e worse combi ever!

i am who i am
5:15 AM

i think i m gg crazy soon..
i m not handling pple relations well...
n hate it when i hav no idea how to continue on fr the pt i m left behind...
mayb...
i should juz disappear..
n my probs will disappear...

ss

i am who i am
8:06 PM

Hi ppl! ahaahaha...
Life's been okay~ although very dissapointed with my ct results esp physics!!! haha but must look forward! Yep yep, ap lets work tgt!
Ss, dun worry i understand how u feel. Everyone has different targets and its ok for u to feel sad. Well, reach ur target nxt time. U can do it! Very appreciate ur help during the mugging period for ct. Thanx!!!!
Shi, hang on hang on! haha. Go for a scholarship if u really want and i am sure it will make ur life better! oh yes remember to apply cream everyday!
Ap, haha i think i can make it this fri. but will be late haha. aja aja! pass u the funtasia tics on fri.
Bb, I have nothing to say. bleah!

i am who i am
5:17 AM

mugging

a sudden urge of motivation to study

but for the wrong reasons

to break away

from the obligations

from this house

this family

this situtation

its so sickening

so tiring

i did nth wrong to deserve all these

but tt's the fact of life

u suffer for wat they did

there is no way to run

but i m selfish

am i?

i dun wanna b trapped

y shd i b in this vicious cycle?

the only way i can break free...

to move away

the only way...

to get overseas scholarship

i dunnoe..

if i m selfish to

run away

but i realli cannot take it much more

i doubt anyone understands

shi`





i am who i am
9:08 AM

i m back...after finishing 2 trial spa skill a 4 chem n bio...

ok...i feel lost...
i really dunno how to describe this feeling...as in...sometimes blogs are not a veh gd way of expressing..unless no one noe ur add....cannot type too many things here...
i hav lost my identity? i dunno wad tt should mean...but...(nope..my ic still safely in my wallet)..

many pple think i m happy wif my jc life...i love my family...my results though not fabulous...but at least they are ok...except 4 gp as usual...i hav u guys though they may not noe..eh.. i seem to b veh frenli...god alot of frens...as wad my frens always sae... ok..i admit.. i happy wif my large circle of frens..as in..i really see alot of pple i noe everywhere..so is like i always saying hi bye hi bye everywhere..but seriously...how many noe me well... i dunno...mayb its still becos of the pri sch incident?...wheneva i need someone..i juz carn seem to find the rite person..i dunno y i suddenli got this feeling..no...i m ok now...juz mayb i suddenli think too mch le...i dunno...this type of feeling juz comes...as in...i m realli glad tt i hav u guys to really tok to...but other then u guys..i really hav no one else le...ok... eh..mayb a few..n really...only A FEW..more of co peepz bah..mayb becos more same frequency..but of cos not all tt i seem close to in co is of same frequency as me...some hu i may seem close to is act veh veh diff frequency fr me..but i can still tok to them...make them happy..i dunno lah..tts y i feel so lost..i shall not sae...but seriously not alot of pple i can tok to...n i really dun like it when....................
nvm..i really juz carn sae it here..i realised its really veh hard to find frens like u guys le.. i dunno... it really seems so diff... n i m seriousli tired of trying le... wo zhen de lei le... mayb i should juz return to my introverted self... n be happy wif my life...love u guys... be happy wif my large circle of hi bye frens...n act cheerful like wad i hav been doing... hiding all my true feelings fr everyone...putting on a mask wherever i go... whenever i tok to pple... pretend to b happy n contented wif my life..pretend i hav no troubles..n juz be a facko in other words...should i?

nvm.. ok..haha.. i shall return to a happy mode..n like wad i told sy.. i having split personality le lah...haha...returning to my haha-ing ways...stay happy... haha... ok...some pig has decided to break her promise again...not gg to trust her anymore...haha... stupid pig.. always bangseh me...
ok...co this wed...hope it will b fine... n i wun die so fast..

tc n love u guys... cya veh soon...
ss

i am who i am
5:12 AM

ok pple...haha...
so outing gd fri afternn k? start planning b4 i spam u guys again...
ok...act cannot spam oso...cos i really dunno wad happen...crap alot wif msg..now oso like exceeding le..omg...1100 still exceed...i really carn believe myself...to think i could still use my stupid prepaid card last time when 1 sms cos 0.05cents....din noe how i survive last time..haha...

ok...as usual... i failed my GP again...haiz..as in..n quite bad oso..i shall not elaborate...its juz another black spot on my result slip agai n again...shit me...juz hope not 1 percentile...n my chem...juz half more mark n i will get... argh...haha...now my chem is another blackspot...haha...shall try to erase it...

nvm...juz sian n pissed by something on thurs fri n sat...shall not elabrate..u guys should all noe...ap.. i shall update u on fri...or rather we will update u...

tc...
ss

i am who i am
8:00 AM

hey!
gg out on gd fri...i dunno...
mite get in e way of my extremely busy n packed mugging schedule...
ah forget it. who m i kidding???
wld give up anything to see u guys! haha!
but of cos, as e name suggests, gotta go church tt day.
afternoon shld be free tho.
oh ya but mite rain tt day. =p
aja aja fighting!!! (tho my fighting spirit is slowly dwindling every single day)

ps to LordOfTheCool: u guys are just too CREATIVE n CUNNING
(n youshldknow which word refers to who)
x)

ap...

i am who i am
5:34 AM

hey
long time no blog..
miss mi??
had been real busy recently
dun even know how everyone had been..

hope everyone's fine=))

well...
results
it depends on how u c it
they can represent how much you knoe
how smart r u
how much u mugged
how lucky u r
they can b wat u live for
wat u think abt
wat u worry everydae
wat u compare

they can also be
some letters

to mi
its impt
coz we r students
its our responsibility
but results are not everything
and definitely not the most impt thing on earth

if u do well this time
congrats=))
if u slipped in one of the subject
smiles
coz u din flop the rest
if u din do well overall
learn from your mistakes and move on

obviously..
i deproved la
expected..

but i m satisfied

tts all i shall comment abt ct le

now for the more exciting event

r u all freee on good fri????!!!

lets meet up!!!

sooo long neva catch up le

nan de got a public hol

well i knoe some might not b free

so plz let everyone know if u r free on tt day asap ya?

take care lotsss

lovessss

shi~

i am who i am
4:28 AM

hey pple..ok..generally noe all our results le...for those hu failed...jiayouz bah...dun feel too sad k? n pls..dun compare anything k? juz try ur best...n we can all do it de...yep... cl..relax k...sick then muz rest...n pls hor...dun too stress...do well next time..like wad my teacher sae...juz work hard...dun peak now...peak when u reach prelims and a levels....

juz to update...i happy wif results bah...except for chem..as in.. nvm..suan le...i sorta expected it cos i no time study my physical chem...i shall let this pass.. some unexpected things happened..haha..n i m quite shock...but...haha...ok...generally... great!!! as usual...gp...haha...failed compre...compo...haven get back..but i wun b shock if i fail...haha...i m used to it le...

was actually depressed in morning when i knew my chem results in the second period...juz din wan to show it cos sometimes pple wun understand...tried to stay happy in class...but really quite diff...whenever i stop trying to smile n crap to pple...i was act really veh disappointed..i was like...so dejected...but i cannot sae anything rite? as in...no one will understand wad i feel..n there is no one i can really tok to in class at tt time...i noe others may ting i siao..n tt i should b satisfied le n not complain le..but sometimes things are juz diff...i noe this sounds absurd..but tts true...

i hav been living in pple's (u guys should noe) shadow since young...it isnt veh great when everything u hav achieved...though being better.. is being downgraded n not given the due credit...except for saying i m juz lucky.. i m not demanding anything...but..nvm...tts wad i experienced...n its onli until recentli tt i m out of it... n i m determined to stay out of it for the rest of my life..
now...i noe pple may sae i expect too much...like veh proud...but...imagine urself in my shoes...n u will b like me...or feel like me..trying veh hard to prove myself..n to prove all of them wrong..tt i m not juz a shadow.. n tt i can hav my own achievements..or mayb...still no one will understand...but hu cares...i dun care le...onli those hu really understand me understand me...ok...dunno wad i m crapping...

oinkx...i shall stay happy...

tc n love u guys...
ss

i am who i am
2:38 AM

ok...
ehh...juz sae tt my class damn slow or wad...but we onli got back math n phy...eh...so far so gd...but tts becos the worse has not arrived..like...bio n gp...shit..haha...like wad i said...haha..shall sae when all my results out....like wad i told my mom...i will onli tell her the results when i get all back..though i noe some le...so tt can neutralise the bad ones...haha... n my mum juz sae ok n laugh...so funny...act she not interested n my results at all lah...haha

busy this few daes...ok...though i m generally quite happy wif the situation n things around me...but i damn busy...co on mon n tues...gg die....chem s n phy s test on thurs...shitty.. i shall survive..hey...for the rest of ual...fail cts suan le...most impt is to cont jiayouz...n yep...will try to help if possible...

shall update soon...
tc...

ss

i am who i am
7:54 AM

haha! cl! just wanted to say this!
2-sub failers r gonna work hard tgt yar.

tired. but stil TRYING not to slack.

aja aja fighting!!! (sounds quite cool =p)

ap...

i am who i am
5:55 AM

haha! lucky my fren sent me alr. ALMOST got tricked but i decided to check e time he sent...so...
didnt get tricked by cl too. yay! haha.

overall failed 2 subjects. gp failed too.
so with new determination, gonna MUG!!!
yup. no more slacking. =)

ap...

i am who i am
4:42 PM

haha almost got fooled by sy...
Jus to apologise to those who got tricked by me hee! sorry! Nxt time something urgent crop up must call okay? haha...
1 week of enrichment end alreadi... It's time to mug mug mug! aja aja!

cl

i am who i am
7:00 AM